Private.

I get insecure about the things I write and who might be reading them.

So, I'm going private.

I would love to still have readers, so send me your email if you want to be a part of my blog-life.    😊

I'm back, with a funk.

It's been 6 months since my last post. 

SIX MONTHS. 

Oh, how I've missed it. 

I wanted to keep blogging and write about all the amazing mile stones and fantastic things that Hazel has done.   But, somewhere between nap time, play time, working full time, being a wife and running errands, I lost time to blog. 

In fact, I've lost time to do much of anything I've enjoyed.

I've been in a funk that I haven't been able to shake.  I wouldn't classify it as depression because I still have good days, I still laugh and I can still get out of bed and do things.   However, I lost time to to things I enjoy.  It became unimportant and on the "back burner". 

I went to a church activity and was asked "something I enjoy to do".   Well, besides spending time with my cute family, all I could come up with was cleaning and cooking.  

Yikes.

That was my red flag that I needed to make a change.

Luckily, I've got an amazing husband who pushes me to take time for myself.   He is great to watch Hazel and cook dinner while I do whatever it is that I want to do.  

I just don't know what I want to do, is the problem.

When Caden and I started dating, my idea of "fun" did not involve anything that I do now.   I was a different person, with different values, morals and goals.   

Now that has changed, I feel like I need to reinvent myself and find new hobbies. But, how do I do that at such an old age?   Where do I meet friends outside of my marriage?  And where do I look for fun?   

I'm hoping blogging will give me some clarity, and by writing my thoughts I can discover myself again.  

So, here is to step one.

I'm back, blog land. 

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Disclaimer:  I feel it important to mention that I know I am blessed.  I have an amazing husband who supports me in whatever I do and spoils me rotten.   I have a daughter who is happy, healthy and beautiful.   I have a home and job that I adore and a family that loves me.

I don't want this blog post to sound ungrateful in any way for these blessings.