Mom to 4 Girls.

Here it is: My first picture with all four of my babies.

All girls.
All the time.

Bring on the glitter and the pigtails, because this shiz is about to get crazy.

People ask me all the time what I'm most afraid of when having twins.
It's really not the two-babies-at-once.   I feel like that's pretty manageable.

What terrifies me is the idea that my two older girls will feel like I don't have time for them.  I never want them to feel pushed aside, or second best. 

I find myself constantly trying to mentally prepare for four children.   How do I budget my time? How do I make each of them feel important?  How do I learn to put the less important things on the back burner? Learn to let go of what doesn't matter?   How do I make each of my girls feel like they are number one.

It seems like a daunting task and I'm afraid I am going to fall short on several occasions.    I feel like life with four is going to be a big reality check and a big life change.    And I'm real nervous.

But, I'm also really excited for this next stage.   Wrapping up the baby days of my motherhood and welcoming two new beautiful spirits into our life.   Thinking about raising 4 girls who are all so close in age and who can play together and laugh together and stay up late together. That seems like a happy home to be in.


I mean,  I always wanted my kids to be close.

...and ours are definitely close. 

4 kids in 5 years.  

...two of them on the same day.

Doesn't get much closer than that. 

Blogging from a Desktop.

EEEEEK!   My husband surprised me with a GORGEOUS desktop computer and it's set up in our spare bedroom.  Which means, I can BLOG again.   Alllllll the heart-eyes emoji.     

I feel like the last 10 blogs have been about blogging, how good it is to blog, how I'm going to try to blog more, and yadda-yadda-yadda.    But now I feel like I really can.   I have a designated space, I have a computer that's way more efficient than my little iPhone and I have the drive. 

Also, I suddenly figured out how to update and edit my about me and header, so that's exciting.   
This one is only temporary until I decide what the heck I'm doing with this little blog.   

I have dreams of being a really great blogger, with lots of readers and connecting with other women virtually.   It may happen, it may not.   But regardless, it's good to write openly, even if no one is reading.   

So--a lot has happened since my last catchup, catsup, ketchup. 

We are pregnant with TWIN girls.  Eeeek!  We have two littles at home already.  Hazel is 4 and Oakley is 2.     I am working as a hospice nurse.  Caden is working in a laboratory as a Medical Laboratory Scientist.   We are both FINALLY done with school and working normal hours.  (No more graveyards, hallllelujah!)   And we built a new home in a darling little subdivision that we really love.   

LIFE.
IS.
GOOD.

And now, I have blogging back in my life.  So, what could be better?!    Does anyone still blog anymore?  Don't know.  Don't care.    I'm here now though, and it's a good place to be.