Waiting on Me.

Sometimes I wonder what life would be,

if I wasn't who I am--a different me.

If I had done things in a different way,

Give more in some areas or take things away.

If I stayed in relationships that I wanted to end,

if I were still close to my very best friends.

If I never moved out, or if I never moved back,

if I tried harder in the areas that I now lack.

Would I still be who I am today?

Would I still shine in the same way?

Would I be stronger, wiser, or better than now?

Would I change the way I know how?

Would I be just as great, or would I be even greater?

Would I get things done that I said I'd do later?

Would I worry less and try to do more?

Would I open a window where I closed a door?

Should I regret and think back to the past?

Or should I worry now on the times that will last?

Should I forget where I've been, and know where I'll be?

Should I let old self go and learn to be the new me?

Self-doubt is what I'm feeling, when I know that I'm great,

Just takes time realizing,

....and I'm too impatient to wait.