Where's Jesus?

I was at a funeral for one of my residents. I was in the backrow.
Funeral was over and they were preparing
to carry my resident into the hearse.
As they openened the doors, it was snowing and beautiful.
The light was shining through and the soft music was playing.

Then, I hear a little girl behind me whisper "Where's Jesus?"

Made me melty.

Reminder.

Dear Callie,

Apply for student loans for next year.

Don't forget.

That's all.

Perfection at it's Finest.

My first thought when I saw this:
"What the heck? They spelled perfectionist wrong."

Then I realized the irony and why it was spelled wrong.

..and then I realized I'm a perfectionist.

It's never too late for New Year's resolutions, right?

My resolution is to be proud of what I'm doing right now.

I am constantly thinking "what's next?" and I forget to congratulate myself on what I have just done or what I'm currently doing.

If I score high on a test, I immediately think about the next test.

I forget to stop and thank myself for a job well done. I forget to be proud of how I am doing now. I am always setting goals and always progressing, but not always living in the now.

I'm a goal setter, a goal achiever, and a perfectionist.

My goal:
Live in the now. Be proud of what I'm currently doing. Currently becoming. What I'm currently achieving, and stop worrying about what's next.
Stop being such a perfectionist.

Sister Blogger.

Big sister joined the blogging world.

One day she'll have a cool header,
...as soon as little sister has time to make one.

Welcome to Blogger, CandieLand.

Get it? Like CandyLand.

Har. Har. Har.

Quote from the Hockey Game.

Life isn't about how hard you can hit,

It's about how hard you can get hit
and keep moving forward.

-Unknown.

The Password is...

Does Weber State make you
change your password every other day,
or is it just me?

CaLLie

CalliE

cAlliE

caLLiE

I'm really running out of options.

Time.

You know you have too much on your plate when you don't know what day it is because they all run together into a big fat cluster of naps, studying, working and school.

Ugh.

Best Friends, Forever.

I definitely am.

I spend the most time with me.

And I absolutely love it.

Heart to Heart.

You know sometimes when you get into real deep conversation?

Full of thoughts, theories, ideas, feelings,
revelation, knowledge, meaning?

I had one last night.

It was totally unexpected, and completely out of the blue.

Yet, delicious in every single way.

I feel new and refreshed, inspired and driven.

I feel close and welcomed.

I feel great.
And I love it.

Rough Day.

Yesterday was a rough day for me.
One of those terrible, horrible, no-good, very bad days.

It started off when I went to take my Chemistry test.
I had an hour to take it before I had to be up to Powder Mountain.

Already in a hurry, so I went to the closest testing center. Apparently, the testing center I went to didn't offer the test I needed to take. But I didn't realize that until after I already printed my own Periodic Table because this testing center didn't have them, and after I had already sat down and unloaded all my backpack, books, coat, hat and soul.

After all the hussle and bussle,
I only had 20 minutes to take my test.
Super.

Finished my test and called Sam to pick her up to head to Pow Mow. Sam was running late and we almost missed our shuttle. Get to the mountain and the lifts are down.
Awesome.

Our instructor tells us we can head up to a different lift, we just need a pass. I had mine but Sam didn't have hers. Figures. So I wait for her to get her shit together and we miss the first bus up the lift. We wait around for the second shuttle and by this time it's about 1:00. Class gets out at 3. I'm about ready to bag the whole day and start over.

We make it to the shuttle and up the mountain. Had to wait at the bottom of the hill for the first group that made the first shuttle. We all conjugate, we split off into groups, we snowboard. Things are looking up.

Until I got mascara in my eye.
And Sam was a real bitch about it and wouldn't help me.

So I had a big fat melt down
in the middle of Powder Mountain.

Pulled myself together, finished my run.
And to my surprise, the entire class is waiting for me at the bottom of the hill.
Embarrassing.

Effin' Day.

The topping on the cake: Weber State called me on the way home. They can't find my Nursing application from last year so I can't get my re-applicant point.
Cool.

Melanoma.

I've got melanoma.
...kinda.

Doc says:
"It's well on it's way to melanoma. For sure."

So, I had it cut out today.
...and go back again in ten days.

20 stitches and hopefully cancer free.

Cross your fingers for me, just in case.

I Pledge.

Watched Oprah today for a minute or two.
Texting and Driving was the topic.

And, I text while I drive.

So today, I'm going to pledge that
for one solid week I won't text while I drive.
When I make it one week, I'll pledge another week.

I have to set some realistic goals, because I really love to text.
...but I feel like saving lives is a lot more important.

Random.

Are you getting annoyed with my 5 line blogs?

...because I sure am.

I wish I had something super great to write about.
But mostly I'll just leave you with some random things.

I had some fraud on my account. I am not really sure how that came about, but they charge me 2 dollars every couple of days. Mostly annoying, not really a big deal.

What really is annoying is all want is some coffee and soup but don't have cash.

...and I no longer have a debit card.
...or a credit card.
...and the banks are closed until Tuesday.

B L A S T.

Blast is my new favorite thing to say.
No idea where it came from, but it's real catchy.

Yesterday, I got some texts from Sam.

Sometimes she sends one word texts
...when she really needs to emphasize.

ie: I. Feel. Like. Shit.

Except, the texts came out of order
...so I got I. Like. Shit. and it really made me smile.

I did some Yoga today.

Totally kicked my ass. Yet, made me feel like one million dollars.

Two tests on Tuesday.

Semester is already going so fast.

I'm not ready.

...and I'm blogging instead of studying.

Cool.

School.

Welp, I have 2 tests on Monday.
...and I just figured it out today.

Oooopsie.

Nurse Carter.

Did the Heimlich Maneuver today.
I'm pretty much a Nurse.
:)

Words of Wisdom.

Patience is a virtue.

I'm completely impatient via interent.
If something doesn't load within 13 seconds, I close the window.
...no matter how badly I want to view said website.

Powder Mountain, Here I Come.

Snowboarding class starts today.
Totally s t o k e d.
I'll be shredding and carving in no time.
Just you wait and see.

Teach Me. Guide Me. Walk Beside Me.

Well, I had my first day as a lab instructor yesterday.
Had NO idea what I was doing, but fake it until you make it.
My only comfort was knowing I have two other instructors with me.

But now, I'm flying solo.
Apparently our lab is too big, so Professor Skopec would like me to come an hour early and teach half the class, by myself.

Uhh, yeah. I can totally do this.
Not even a big deal.

Cross your fingers for me,

Just in case.

People's Choice Awards

Tonight is the People's Choice Awards.
I don't usually watch that sort of thing.
but I feel like I need to tonight,
in case there's another "Kanye" incident.

And I'd hate to be the last one to know.
Gotta' keep up on my current events.

Grandpa Carter

You should know:
I find it difficult going to visit my Grandpa Carter.
It may be because he's my dad's dad and that's hard.
It may be because he's real religious and that's hard.
It may be because he's old and old people make me uncomfortable.

Since working at Mountain Ridge,
I've seen the way my residents light up
when their family comes to visit.
I've seen how happy it makes them.
I've heard them talk about it for days afterwards.
And I've seen the impact it has on their life.

So, today I went to see my Grandpa.

...and it wasn't at all uncomfortable.

It was welcoming. And inviting. And accepting.

And we didn't talk about church.

Also, when I go to visit my Grandpa he always gives me a book.

This time, it's a book about being grateful.

and I L O V E it.

Thanks Grandpa.

Let's do this again, real soon.

Help Me Help You.

Uh, question of the day:
Do I have word verification when you try to comment my blog?
And, if so, how the hell do you get rid of that?
...because I find it real annoying.

Happy Birthday, Candie.

Today is another real important day.

It's my big sister's birthday.

Her name is Candie and today she turns 32 years young.

Candie is a sister. A daughter. A mom.
And my best friend.

Sometimes she's an airhead.

Sometimes she forgets things.

Sometimes she steals my clothes.

Sometimes she makes me budget her checkbook.
...but yet, I still love her to pieces.

In every single way.

She's always smiles. Always loves. Always stands by her family. Always has my back. Always gives me hugs. Always tells me she loves me. Always supports me in all that I do. Always motivates me. Always inspires me. And she's always incredible.

She's my big sister, and today is her special day.

Happy Birthday, Candie.

I love you.

Weber State, Great. Great. Great.

School is cool.
I'm real excited to be back.

I feel better when I'm in school.
More of a routine. More accomplished.

Giving chemistry another go-around.
Better luck this time, definitely.

Chemistry. Nutrition. Snowboarding.

Also, I'm a Physiology TA.
That'll be interesting.

Ahhh, school. How I've missed you.

Dear Diary, part 2.

Remember this post about my diary, where I write down what I did every single day? Well, now it's real exciting because a new year has started and I can compare last year to this year on the exact day.

Although, so far, not much has changed. Yet, still exciting.

Wedding Bells, not mine.

Woah.
MBP is getting married?!
What has blog world come to?